Silence you lost me...

under pressure__x
oh my g)o)d),
so, i haven't updated in a while.
i'm sorry, not that anyone reads anyway.
haha, it just makes me feel better to update.
well, i'm job hunting...again.
it's sad really.
i don't want to work, but i know i need the money.
i'm thinking i should try my luck at mcdonalds.
i mean they employ everyone and i'm desperate.
other than that, life is good.
got a wedding July, 15th.
Amanda's birthday...
but it's ok, i don't talk to her much anymore anyways.
the wedding is for my aunt and her boyfriend Bonnie Floyd.
The crazy jazz and soul singer from Conneticutt.
two things to say about this:
1)after 19 years of dating...FINA fuckin' LLY!
2)grind wit cho girrrrl.

now that i'm a suicide girls addict,
i find it more an art and i wish i
could photograph for them.
it looks like so much fun and
you meet so many unique people.
Jayney from the site stole my heart.
is she not adorable?

♥^hardly R.

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Avenged Sevenfold- I won't see you tonight (part 1)

as they open your rib cage. i get when they say, "true beauty comes from the inside"__x
the first time i saw a body bent that w)a)y),
i realized you were more beautiful dead then alive.
Yay! for Boys Night Out.

But this song is super creepy.
A torrid love affair.
Check it.

So, i'm outof school and life is getting better.
Ever so slowly, but it's getting there.
I hope it moves a bit faster.

I huged with the one person i've hurt
so much in my life and i hope it's
a sign of change.

Last day of school, Trashley came over.
And we made Josh Levin meet us at
Ritas. Everyone knows they're
mortal enemies. It's fun
watching them fight and
chase each other.

It's raining.
I love the rain.
But it's thundering and lightning.
I love the sounds, it's just...
I wish I could share it.

♥^{medical nightmare} R.

Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Boys Night Out- Waking

The camera caught you causing a__x
commotion on the gurney a)g)a)i)n),

Oh and, just for the record,
the weather today is slightly sarcastic with a good chance of:
A. Indifference and(or)
B. Disinterest in what the critics say

Well we're just a wet dream for the webzines,
make us it make us hip make us scene!!!

Ok, I think I have all the PANIC out of me and I can get to typing something that may actually make some sense, unless you're Annabelle. Then nothing makes sense.

Today was pretty good.
Reasons why today was good:
1)I saw my lovely.
2)Ryan Noury flashed me like three times. [[It's not a good thing, but it made me laugh and I love to laugh.]]
3)Jared Dooley attempted to put lipstick on Mr. Dunphy.
4)I skipped french class and Mr.Dunphy let me chill in his room with Peter, Jordan, and Ashley Armstrong.
5)I made people freak out by saying there was a body in the recycling bin.
6)We had constant picture taking going on at lunch.

It was just an all around good day.

♥^{stupid mother fucker} R.

Current Mood: crazy good...like pop tarts
Current Music: Panic! At the Disco- Lying is the most fun a girl can have..

status: hiatus over__x
ta fucking d)a),
i finally decided to type in here again.
so roy left me a ranodm taco on my stairs.
i was liek wtf! i'm not touching it.
my fat sister ate it. i'm waiting
for her to die. CONGRATS FELLY
ON GETTING INTO THE DRESDEN
DOLLS PLAY!

Happy 666, fuckers.

♥^{just a little bit} R.

Current Mood: dancing...stfu
Current Music: Kill Hannah- Lips Like Morphine

asdfjklpenis__x
Brooklyn is g)a)y),
The following conversation is between Brooke and I sharing the keyboard.
Brooklyn:Hi. Do you like making out?
Rennison:Yeahhh.
Brooklyn:Wow your wierd! But I do to, so I guess I am wierd too!
Rennison:DOOD! When the fuck have you ever made out with someone in your life!? And we figured out you were weird like...11 years ago. Damn jew.
Brooklyn:I am not a JEW! Asshole. You can go suck a fuck!!!!! I love you. So, do you like things?
Rennison:CALM DOWN YOU BIPOLAR DONNIE DARKO! Things?! You're fucking sick! I'm taking a shower. Peace. *waits for Brooke to reply so she can log off.*
Brooklyn:CAN I COME?????!!!!!!!!wow
Rennison:Dood! No1 Incest if fucking gross unless your brother is Zacky Vengeance or Matt Good.

PEACE!

I honestly hate you right now__x
Make damn s)u)r)e),
Listening to Cute Is What We Aim For- Hip Hop At IHOP. It's one of those free lance songs and you sit there with that puzzled look on your face, saying, "WTF!?" and other time laughing, "Oh my GOD!"

So, I'm an addict. I'll admit I like going on SuicideGirls.com, but it's a bit embarrassing when someone you know finds you. And so is the case when I get a comment from this dude and he's like, "You look really familiar...." and guess who...THE MANAGER FROM HOT TOPIC IN EMERALD SQUARE! The little bald one with the goatee. I was like "Shiitttt..." I can't go to Hot Topic anymore. Hahaha.

Two days of the week and detention left. I hope I'll survive. Today I was walking up the bridge and the White Teez [[FUCKIN' PUSSY GANG!]] pushed me off the sidewalk and I yelled at him with big words and whipped out my switchblade comb and the kids were like, "Shit!" and apologized to me. Hahaha! Hope everyone's week is ok-ish.

♥^mostly R.

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Avenged Sevenfold- Clairvoyant Disease

I've got the gift of one liners, you've got the__x
Curse of c)u)r)v)e)s),
Ok, so you pretty much have to download Cute is What We Aim For- The Curse of Curves. I'm pretty much head over heels with it. We're expecting a child in 8 months. Hahaha.

Yeah, so Josh Levin...when you think he couldn't be anymore of an asshole, he bit my ear and made it infected! It's swollen and oh so Prince Charles-ish. I want to kick him in the pants so bad.

In other news, sad stuff for Bradley [[my british buddy I would do anything for.]], I have two sea monkey's left. And they're both boys so I can't reproduce my clan. They're the beautiful gay lovers of which Matt and I named Bert and Gerard. Hahaha. i♥ Mattie Delfini.

One day left of school before the weekend and I'm happy like woah, but xanga is down right now to extend servers. Hopefully they'll make xanga a tinsy bit better. Missing a Miss. Dara B.

♥^always R.

Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Cute is What We Aim For- The Curse Curves

That was my mom...fuck you BITCH!__x
Fuck you s)p)e)a)k)e)r),
So, yeah. Suicide Girls has this one set with Akemi && Disco called The Pins and Needles. Hottest stuff I've ever seen. It's like...insta-orgasm.

Hopefully my day off is ful off stuff.

I hope.

♥^mostly R.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: From First to Last- Heroine

You can stay if you want too__x
And I'll t)r)y),
So, yeah, Steph thought we were dating [[but we weren't!]], but it doesn't matter anymore because she fucked Devin. Some STD ridden guy. But she fucked him and I'm like, "Woah! If I was going out with you, I'd fuck your face up right now!" Who fucking does that? So if Steph tells you I'm dating her, it's def not true.

Okies, Kyle planned out our futures in British Literature. This is how it went for the few of us:

Kyle: Owns Rita's ice cream shop.
Jake F: Owns New England Benny's store division.
Tim: Is a built fireman who weilds an ax with one arm.
Trashley: Joins a nudist colony, spotted on PBS, censored.
Rennison [[me]]: Spends life in jail for rapimg Zacky Vengeance.

I love my future!
Haha, but yeah. I hurt Josh's feelings really bad.
Is it a sin not to feel bad?
Hahaha.

♥^always R.

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: My Chemical Romance- Desert Song

And I know, this is the only way of pleasing the crowds__x
Hey Miss M)u)r)d)e)r)
Today, I bunked again. I know, bad. But it was kind of nice. I took Brooklyn with me, because I wouldn't want my sister to bunk and leave me behind. Apparently, Scottie Dottie got suspended for bunking, but he's coming back on tuesady or wednesday. I can't remember.

But it was really nice bunking. We talked to people on SG, we were bored. We got Taco Bell. And just hang out. Then going back to school to have our mom pick us up, we saw Adam Womack, which was nice, because I haven't seen that kid in a long ass time.

And my dad covered the whole thing up for us from my mum. The only thing he's good at.

Well, I'm just sitting here waiting for Josh Sears [[ my Newton Massachusetts friend, who has cooler hair coloring than you and brings me cheez-its ]]to get on so I can have someone to talk to.

pee ess: WHAT MADE MY DAY: Besides seeing Adam....it was seeing Tim's fucked up tooth. PRICELESS!

♥^always R.

Current Mood: content
Current Music: The Scene Aesthetic- Beauty in the Breakdown

Take this from my consciousness, and please erase my dreams__x
Won't return t)o)n)i)g)h)t),
Hello everyone. I started my weekend off with a nice relaxing bunk to get me thinking straight for all the people I have to talk to. I ended up walking home from school straight after homeroom. Saw all the usual bunkers Steph introduced me to. I just walked home and no one said anything. And then I finally got home, saw my mum's car and ran to the end of the street while cussing under my breath. I sat on the curb all the way down the end of my street and I waited 4o minutes until my mum left for work, then I walked straight in the house. I went online, left Josh a message that I would be home and twelve was fine for him to come over at, and Nina walks in the house. I scared the shit out of her and we swapped stories about how we were home. Apparently my dad only dismissed Nina. Fucker. But I got away with it. Josh came over and he was here til about an hour ago. It now being 2:55 am. Yeah...crazy! He is coming over again today, technically. Haha, oh jeez.

People I wish to say something to:
Annabelle: Yo homie. I looked at my agenda today and saw your backwards message. I laughed. I haven't talked to you in a while! How are you!?

Felicia: Hey hun. I am so sorry, babeh. I'm sure this is all going to get better. It can't get any worse. I'm so proud of you that you haven't even broken down once infront of me. But you ever need someone...I'm a park away.

Danny: Dude...You need to talk to people. Kian is stealing you away. You gotta have a FULL life, meh brotha from anotha motha. Pee ess: CALL FELLY! TWICE A WEEK! DO IT! YOU'RE DEPRESSING ME!

♥^always R.

Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: Avenged Sevenfold- M.I.A.

Murder, Liar, Vengeance, Deceit__x
Plague as f)u)c)k),
Where has he gone?
What have you done?
A voice commands from high above this earth.
From the soil I hear his blood cry out to me
Murder, liar, vengeance, deceit.

Good song. <3

Today I got my Zacky Vengeace- Vengeance University shirt and I'm so happy. It's beautiful and amazing! Went to the Boston Aquarium yesterday and some emo kid stalked us. All the way from the aquarium to the toy store. And Boston is big! I was scared!

Now I have cramps and I'm miserable. Oddly enough, Josh Levin and I are friends again, because we realize we are both equally fucked up. So BAM friends. I think Danny needs to throw soup at him though, just to be sure.

♥^always R.

Current Mood: nostalgic
Current Music: Avenged Sevenfold- Chapter 4

We have like journals that we never put up...but we should__x
Fishin' fo p)u)s)s)a)y),
Hahaha, Matt Shadows says the funniest things. Hey meh babehs, how's life treating you now-a-days. I hope pretty damn decent.

First day of vacation, and I'm all ready grounded. Pfffftt, like I'm actually going to abide by it. I got in trouble for inviting a friend over too late at night, even though Nina does it all the time. That really pissed me off.

But tomorrow Ima go rollerskating with Trashley. Everythings fun when you fall on your ass and can't get up.
&&
Getting my broke ass a job app to work at some beat up ice cream place with kids I can
relate to. Finally.

Recently, I bought myself a Zacky Vengeance shirt that I am still ecstatic about. I've probably mentioned it 12 times to each and every one of you. I have to say, livejournal isn't so friendly. I like xanga better. Everyone posts pics of themselves and the layouts are better. But I make my own anyways. =]

Have a killa weekend/easter/vacation!

♥^always R.

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Avenged Sevenfold- Burn it Down

Gasp! I'm back....on the radio__x
This girl's f)i)e)r)c)e),
Oh em gee. I'm back. After a collapse in my life where I actually shut down the site [[temporarily, mind you]]. But I'm back and better than ever. Lots of juicy info.

1) Adriana Whidart (spelling? Who cares.) Is all like, "What are you talking about Tim and I didn't have sex." And in my head I'm like, Pssshhh bitch he told me so. In real life, I'm like, "I didn't say you did."

2) Hopefully me and Felicia are talking again. She was my best friend and then she's all like, no more homeroom and major droppage on her myspace friend's list. So I moved her down on mine.

3) Josh wants all his ghetto dollar store fake trinkets back. Woop dee do! He can have them. He made up all these stories...F A K E !

4) Matt has very little hair. We swapped his shampoo with Nair and it makes me sad, cause I have nothing to pull him by when we fight. Hahaha.

5) My own hair is cut. Very short too. Like...shorter than Brody Dalle's shortest do. Man, I love Brody Dalle.

6) I have a liking for all Resident Evil things lately. It's sad, because I sit there and play RE compulsively.

7) All I do now-a-days is write this story for Quizilla.com. I like how it's coming along so far.

Anyways, had a great b-day party. Avenged Sevenfold && Head Automatica were a fuckin' amazing!!! I left right after Avenged cause I mean, who the fuck wants to end their night on Coheed? Not I. So Brooklyn and I got Haven Brothers chilly dogs and raced down the street with them at 11 at night. I so won.

Hope all of you are well and comment me lots.

I miss comments.

♥^always R.

Get you some.

Current Mood: Psyched as fuck
Current Music: Guns && Roses- Welcome to the Jungle

My heart in your hands__x
Tired and b)r)o)k)e)n),
Woah! Birthday is coming up soon, depressing. Anyway...leading up event to birthday//

WBRU is dead! They didn't even let the last song play fully before commencing operation BUD E FM. FUCK bud e fm. It can choke on my non-existant cock! I cried so hard. So now main event...(besides wanting to kill myself because I lost my life and was hooked up on the life support I call WHJY.)

My mum felt horrible and took me out birthday shopping. Made me feel a little better. Well, a lot better. She gave away all my presents though, cause I'd say I wanted something and she'd be like, 'I already bought that *looks away*'. But everything is going out of business. PEE ESS! THE NEW HOT TOPIC IS AMAZING!

♥^always R.

Current Mood: infuriated
Current Music: Scary Kids Scaring Kids

In this life of misery__x
Kill me n)o)w),
So, life pretty much is bland like woah. I hope you'll be happy to know Josh and I are over. I dumped him. I feel happy for it and myself. He never liked me anyways. I was like an experiment or something. Humph. Who knows. I'm just glad it's over, because now I have someone better in my life. ^-^ Erika.

Super creepy....cause it's the same name as Felicia's love interest....but my Erika is better to me. And Felicia's Erika is better to her. And Felicia and I are no longer tight. And I swallow prozac like the west was won.

♥^always R.

Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: Jeffree Star- We Want Cunt

Well I'm from lalalalalala land__x
Hello s)i)c)k) loves,
Haha, I feel so amazing right about now. Confronting Josh and finally figuring out how to make a windows pop up. Grr! Amazing! What the frigg!? They don't have corageous on my mood boys!

♥^always R.

Current Mood: dorky
Current Music: Brand New- The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows.

I promise you__x
Hello s)i)c)k) loves,
Watching the starts at night, there's nothing that I'd rather do. The Cardigans-...and then I turned seven...Aww, Zacky and I have a song. Is there any other reason to feel nostalgic right now...no, there isn't.

I noticed lately, that I'm not tight with friends like I used to be. It kind of hurts. Really bad. There is this space and all these people are missing out of it. It's depressing. Like amazingly sucking prozac out of the bottle depressing.

I just need friends again. Badly. RECRUITING FRIENDS NOW!

♥^always R.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: The Postal Service- Such Great Heights

Roxy's doing her beautiful make-up...obviously__x
Hello s)i)c)k) loves,
I have an obsession with Jeffree Star. Well, not an obsession. But Jeffree star is beautiful and amazing. Point blank.

Anyways, Trashley and I had a sleepover. It was mucho fun. I have pictures of us being completely stupid and primped in eigthies galour.

But for now. I have to go, as for I was on the last chapter of my story and am about to burst out in tears. It's so freakin' sad.

♥^always R.

Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: From First to Last- Afterbirth

Anywhere is better than here away from you__x
Hello s)i)c)k) loves,
I was watching From First to Last- The Latest Plague and BAM! just as Matt was falling, my comp blanked out. I was like, "NO DAMMIT! You can't do this! IMA LEGAL US CITIZEN!"

The End.

♥^always R.

Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: From First to Last- Waves Goodbye

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